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Sunday, February 21, 2010 @ 12:35 AM
Went to Zhang lao shi's house to bai nian with YZ, JY, Eliz and Vivian this morning. we were late for half an hour though. :\ & that was like, I think.. My fault? haha.. pai seh pai seh..
had a really really good time at her house. though i should wear smth red. um. yeah. & oranges.. I could've pluck them from nearby trees since I've ran out of them at home. Just kidding, there's no way there's orange trees planted in Singapore. Or is there? o_o
anyways. back to the times where we're playing gu zheng tgt. the feeling was heart warming, like the old times back. I've been ranting about, missing the old times and all. & I've gotten my wish of having one feel of it again today (:
parted ways with them after the visit. Was alrd late for 1.5 to 2hours. cabbed down to his house, cooked, played games and sleep. went to ate sakae sushi for dinner at arnd 6plus. my only meal for the day until now. wanted to wait for boon hao to arrive. but then, too hungry :\
went to daiso tgt, everyone got their stuffs. BH went home, he sent me home. Got home, on the com, left it hanging and entertained them. not really entertain la.. just stayed outside. chat chat, watched tv. then they either mahjong or poker cards. which I was involved in neither of them. Not interested, no mood la. feel very tired this days. I should start sleeping early.
very mono tone uh now.. sieh sleepy. going to sleep after this post's done.
One thing that I totally totally am disappointed, that she has only seen things on the surface. Even when she's angry, whatever, she doesn't open up and ask. okay, fine, I should be more alert and whichever. BUT, would you know what's wrong when one doesn't speak about her unhappiness? probably. NOT.
you said you read my blog frequently, then you should have read that I said I would love it if my friends are willing to tell me where my flaws are so I can improve. I want to improve and not stay at the same spot running. true friends tell you where you're wrong, guide you along when you accept their help, when they offer so. I've said sorry for making you putting up with my nonsense, flaws. I try my best to change.
& one simple comment of mine in hope that can actually make you change and all, can make you blow your top. going all sarcastic. If you don't want the hard truth, you want to continue living as you do. not changing. expecting others to tolerate every shit you give. then DO NOT complain that you can't tolerate I whatever whatever. because like you, I had to put up with your bloody ass shits.
& I do not know or even understand why, WHY can't I say no? WHY should I always give in to your demands? Even if you think so, I don't care if you say I'm giving excuses or not. I have my choice & I'll make mine.
Everything's on the surface, you've changed. you aren't the one whom I am able to share secrets anymore.
